woah

has it really been over a month since my last post?
sorry about that.
i'm still alive.

i've painted a gazillion walls, bought new furniture, had carpet installed in most of the house, moved too much furniture to mention and it snowed.  twice.

it's not even halloween yet.

if you find fall, can you send it my way?

reality

home alone at 9 on friday night...hoping that a childless person has read my myspace message to them. sad that they haven't.

must.realize...people without children are not sitting home checking myspace on a friday night.

then again...it's only 7pm there while it's 9 here. maybe there's hope yet.

looking back

I've been facebooking old friends and crushes lately.

Do you every look back and wonder...what was I thinking?!

cause I do.

note to self

your husband might be a know it all...but he does not KNOW IT ALL.

Flash Back

and old friend from back home called tonight.  total blast from the past.  it was really great to catch up and such a surprise to hear from him.  it's making me wish i was closer to home and that i had access to all kinds of cheesy old photos. 

i want to post them on facebook.

million dollar smile.

do you have any idea the hourse of tooth brushing joy that a new $5 electric dora toothbrush can bring to a 2 year old?  no i mean  seriously. do you?

if I'd let her she'd use up that entire tube of little bear toothpaste, right here right now.

best $5 ever.

today

I officially sent my baby big girl off to pre school  pre K today (preschool was the room she was in when she was 3 and now it's pre-k).  Sniff sniff.

Its weird to be home with just 1 kid.

Must be time to make another.  If only hubby weren't traveling so darn much.  I might be able to get knocked up.

leraningz - we do em.

a b c d f g h i j k lo lo lo lo peeee.  q r s t u v w ex y an see.  next time wontchoo sing wif me? 
that's great mommy?

thats great baby.

recent conversations

little sass: mama, we go big girl's party now?

mama (me): no

little sass:  not yet?

mama: no

5.minutes.later.

little sass: mama, we go big girl's party now?

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oh someone please shoot me.  this party is 15 days away.

Things I did do today

• Paint 1st coat of basement bedroom (not closet)
• nursed hang over due to the wine I had with dinner last night
• picked up the house (but didn't clean)
• snoozed lightly for a few mins (i wouldn't call it a nap)
• washed and dried a load of laundry that I had washed previously but failed to transfer to the dryer (ok, it was a few times)
• ate a few oreos
• listened to some fab 90's songs while I painted.  brought back lots of memories of people and places.
• cleaned out the fish tank because one of the fish has now gone to that big fishbowl in the sky (via the big fishbowl in my bathroom)
• Put names on the envelopes for Big girls birthday invitations so she could stuff the envelopes

I'd say it was quite a day.

Things I may or may not do today

• paint the basement bedroom
• clean the house
• go back to Lowe's to reevaluate carpet options (since the estimate came back at +5K)
• take a nap
• nurse a hangover

I'll let you know how it all turns out.

Found a new blog today.

Thought I'd share.  She's pretty funny.  Claims its mostly fictional, but I really don't know about that.  Some if it is so off the wall that it just has to be true.

Oh, and Kayla...go to your settings tab and scroll down to the global settings (under basic) and move the radio button to Updated Editor. 
I'm loving it.
(like McDonalds - only the Updated Editor isn't making me fat - like McDonalds)

(Edited) Crap - here is the blog I found http://www.shaunaglenn.blogspot.com/

This is a horse we saw at the fair today the other day.

I don't know why I chose this photo to share with you.

I just wanted to try out the new blogger editor I found a couple of minutes ago.

and also, why do I continually let myself stay up this late?

I want you to know that my eyes are watering and the screen is blurry as I type this.

But dammit.  I'm doing it. 

oh and also.  this new editor features a strikethrough button so I don't have to deal with the annoying, cumbersome, html tagging that I JUST learned how to do.

ah well.

PS.  Doesn't this horse look like it should have been a giraffe?

edited - evidently i'm so tired that I thought I went to the fair today.  going to bed now.

To Do List Accomplished

print big girl's birthday invites
grocery shop
return church table cloth
wal-mart trip
buy more paint for basement
clean house
paint some more

5 out of 7 isn't too bad, right?

AND I saved over $45 with coupons at the grocery store today. Gotta love that!

Paint Project.

We Sir Works A Lot did it....

Our basement is finished enough that we are at the painting stage! Colors have been picked. Carpet chosen, walls primed and today I got started on our first coat.

I can't wait to have a basement to hang out in.

You guys wanna come sip cocktails with me?

well, duh.

Since my hubby has been working so hard on our basement this summer and has started traveling weekly for work, I took it upon myself to learn how to operate our John Deere riding lawn mower a couple of months ago.

Turns out, mowing the lawn is FABULOUS!

Seriously. No REALLY. I mean it.

Yes. I really mean it.

Ok, lets get the laughter out of our systems now.

There, are we done?

No?

Ok, now?

Good.

Anyway...I've been mowing the lawn almost weekly for the last 2 months now and just today I figured out why I like it so much.

It's because it's the one thing around here that I can tidy up and it can't be immediately messed up again. It takes that grass a good 3-4 days to get messy again. Unlike the inside of the house which has 2 monkeys children to mess it up in 3.2 miliseconds.

Oh, and it's also great because I can hear myself think even over the roar of the engine. Unlike the roar of Dora the Explorer or anything else on Noggin.

So Blessed.

Have I told you how lucky I am??

Well, I am.

Not only do I get to spent pretty much 24/7 with my kids, but now that I'm home it's opened all kinds of doors for me to say yes to things that I otherwise would have likely turned down the opportunity to be involved in.

Church involvement in particular. I never would have been able to help out at Vacation Bible School this summer, or even have my kids attend for that matter.

I feel so lucky.

More to Love

are you watching this show??

I'm catching up right now on my TiVo. I forgot all about it until I was flipping through my TiVo the other day and came across 3 episodes I hadn't watched yet.

As I'm watching, I'm drawn in by some of the women and Luke (the "bachelor"). But it makes me a little scared for him too.

I mean, some of these women (in their 20's) haven't had relationships before, one has never had a 2nd date and only 3 first dates, and some with no dates ever. Ever. And now they are competing for the love of this one guy.

Doesn't this seem like the perfect set up for creating stalkers?? I can totally see some of these girls who are for the first time ever getting affection from a guy turning in to total stalkers once they are sent home. Heck, some of them are seeming a bit stalker-ish already.

Fatal Attraction anyone??

Watch out Luke.

Question.

Does drinking a glass of wine while waiting for the results of a pregnancy test make me a bad mother?

ZOO trip

My kiddos and I went to our local Zoo recently.

I took that photo.

Neat-o huh?

I understand...

I used to wonder how people let themselves get fat. I mean, couldn't you tell that the weight was piling on - and didn't you want to do something about it.



Now, I'm the person I used to wonder about. I'm the one in the middle of a weight gain...and while I know I should stop eating McDonald's, I know that I should spend more time in the gym, I know that I need to do something and yet I find myself on the couch day after day.



But I have a plan.



It's starting after I attend the state fair and eat my little (big)heart out.

and PS. Thanks to NYC HIT for helping me finally figure out the art of the strikethrough.

Never Say Never

You know how when you are young (and dumb) and you say things like, I'll never let my kids act like that...how hard is it to keep your kids hair brushed...my kids won't leave the house with a dirty face, sticky hands, mismatched clothes...even when I have kids I'll still make time to do my hair and make up when I go out.

Well, let me tell you something....

They will. Sometimes it's very hard. Yes, they will time and time again. And No, you won't.

V.I.C.T.O.R.Y

Yes, that's right. I won. Ha! He got back from his trip last night. I was asleep when he got home and still asleep when he went to the office this morning. BUT when I looked in the bathroom, the clothes had been moved to the laundry basket.

I just took them out of the dryer. I don't mind doing the laundry, I do think that actually doing the laundry is part of my job description as a SAHM. But picking up clothes from the bathroom floor is not.

We'll see what discussion, if any, comes from this tonight.

IT'S ON

Did you ever see that episode of Everybody Loves Raymond, where he returns from his business trip and leaves his suitcase on the stairs?? Ray doesn't think he should have to take care of it - she's the one who takes care of the house. Debra doesn't think it should be her responsibility because - hey - it's HIS suitcase, he's capable of taking it upstairs and emptying it.

Well, I'm in a similar battle. Except my battle is with dirty clothes on the bathroom floor.

Sir Works a Lot has been working on our basement, he's got come incredibly dirty clothes when he's drywalling. 2 weeks ago, I decided to conduct a little experiment...to see how long he'd let the clothes pile up. As of now - more than 2 weeks after the experiment began, there are 4 days of basement work clothes still on that floor. (Maybe that's why he hasn't worked on the basement in over a week).

I really don't think that it's in my job description as a SAHM to pick up his clothes off the bathroom floor after he showers. (Is it?!) I knew the war had been waged and it had turned into a battle of wills. So I broached the topic yesterday....

Me: Could you just concede already and pick up your clothes on the bathroom floor? Because if not, they will still be there waiting for you when you get back from your trip on Tuesday.

Him: I have a full-time job.

(WTF?!)

I really don't remember what I said after that...but I do remember what I was thinking... it was along the lines of FU%K THAT!

Ok, so I know I'm the SAHM here, and YES I pick up after my kids, clean the house, cook the meals - and admittedly I'm a shitty housekeeper. I can be lazy and often lack motivation to do little more than wake up in the morning and sometimes even that is a stretch goal for the day.

BUT it SHOULD NOT be my responsibility to pick up his nasty ass 2 week old clothes from the bathroom floor.

It shouldn't even get to a 2 week point...you take a shower...you put your clothes in the laundry basket (or in our case the laundry pile). Is it that freaking hard?!

Please someone tell me if I'm in the wrong here...if you are convincing enough - I might go pick up the clothes, right now.

Gym Day.

Back on the wagon at the gym again. Now that Sass' nose has stopped running.

Today I spent nearly 2 hours working out. I did almost 4 miles on the treadmill and it was leg day. I also got to read a few chapters in my books and watch some grown up TV all at the same time. It was great!

I also have a $50 gift certificate burning a hole in my pocket for the spa at my gym...can't wait to get a massage there!

Oink Oink

The swine flu has invaded. My kids were exposed to the neighbor kids who had it.

And by exposed, I mean one of said infected kids spend the whole day in my house on saturday. While she was on anti-biotics for what they thought was strep or mono or something else, it turned out that it was VERY likely H1N1. Some kid at their daycare had a confirmed case and they had all the same symptoms.

So ew.

Big Girl is on Tamiflu - due to a "signifigant exposure" Little Sass is on antibiotics, Omnicef to be exact. The stuff that gives you red poo. She's got a green goopy nose and has required antibiotics for such in the past.

So yea, I should be sterilizing my house today. But lets be honest. I'm lazy and a shitty housekeeper.

Plus I'm catching up on old posts from Ashley's Closet and worrying about Stellan.

mommy = FAIL!

Big Girl just asked to see her baby book. Her non existent baby book.
Talk about making a mommy feel bad.
I think I need to get started on that. Maybe before she turns 5.

you know you are a mom when....

you walk in to check on your 2 year old and encounter a wall of stink when you open the door. Only to discover a totally shitty diaper on your sleeping kid and that shit is all over her, her toys, her bed.

Then after you get your kid clean and back to bed...you have to make a bleach solution to hand clean the 2 babies that had her shit all over the.

what a shit-tastic way to spend a friday night.

skipped again

little sass has a runny nose. i don't figure my $5 monthly gym membership for her covers wiping thick nasty mucus from her upper lip every 2 minutes. so we stayed home. FAIL on the working out, but i suppose it does make me a considerate member. right?



Maybe Big Girl and I can take a trip just the 2 of us once hubby gets home.



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I did go yesterday though, I wanted to try a class. i searched the schedule and the gym's website for all the class descriptions and one that I thought would work for me. I was amped. I was even there early, dropped the kidlets off at the daycare place and was on the treadmill for 10 mins. At class time I walked up there and in the room I saw about 7 older women. Hummm...interesting. And when I say older. Think of your grandma. for reals.



I watched for a minute while I assessed the situation. I watched as they each pulled out a chair and placed it in the middle of the studio. humm strange.



then a couple of them grabbed some 5 or 10 lb dumbells and carried them over to the chair. Then it hit me.



I had just walked in on this:

Thanks for the pic www.sitandbefit.org

I hightailed it out of there and decided to grab my Mommywood book and get back on the treadmill. What was I thinking? Trying out a class? pshhha!

skipped.

I skipped the gym today because I woke up with some motivation to clean the house. So far, I've done the kitchen (including the floors!).
Not much progress, maybe should have done the gym. oh well. Tomorrow. It's already lunch time and I need to get started on that.

hi again

it's been a few days.


I've been to the gym 3 times. yesterday i lifted weights. I'm defi sore today. Today, I'm taking my new book Mommywood by Tori Spelling.

Yep. Thats right.
Ever since the Twilight books I'm into reading. I have many more that I want to read, but books are just so damn expensive. seriously. I dropped 17.50 on tori's book last night at target.

(yet another reason why I stopped going to target unless absoutely necessary since I stopped working).

Usually I try to swap books with friends or borrow from the library but new releases are harder to come by at the library and i didn't know anyone who had this book and was done with it yet. So I forked out the cash. At least I'll have something for my friends to borrow so I can "pay them back" for all the books I've borrowed of theirs.

I wanted to leave for the gym 11 minutes ago. clearly...right?! One girl isn't fed yet and they both are still in their jammies. we'll see how this goes. Maybe I can leave in the next 18 mins. HA.

I did it.

I joined a gym.

I know I dont need to be spending that money but I have to have it. I was only truly feeling well those months when I was at the gym regularly last year.

So now, the girls and I are members at a Lifetime fitness. Complete with 2 hours per day in the child care center and indoor/outdoor water park type pools.

love it.

The one with the confessions.

The things I SHOULD have done today and didn't.

I'll just make a list for you, it will be easier.

(in no real order).

Showered
Got out of bed before 9.
Made my kids take a nap at an appropriate nap time.
Made the big one put a shirt on.
Changed out of the t-shirt I slept in.
Ate lunch at a normal lunch time (not west coast lunch time).
Put away toys


And now for the things I should NOT have done today and did.

Let Big Girl eat 3 mini fruit roll ups in my bed this morning, while I slept late.
Sat on the couch most of the day.
Let the girls eat lunch in the living room, at different times.
Started blogging again
Played way too many games of bounce out online.
Wait until 6:30 pm to go outside for the first time today.
Slack on library day.,
Stay awake for no reason too late - dooming me to repeat the same sleeping pattern as today.


hey...at least I didn't take a nap today. Nevermind that I was totally unproductive.

My Sister's Keeper

I just finished the book. I started it because I wanted to see the movie and wanted to have read the book first. Now I find out that the movie doesn't follow some of the details I loved most about the book and I've gone from crying to pissed.

I don't think I'll see the movie now.

I read all the spoilers on-line and one of my fave characters was completely omitted from the movie.

Yes, I need this.

Its too much of an outlet to completely let go.

It's all the little complaints, funny stories, boring stories, joys and the in between that I can record and vent.

I used to care about being funny, being followed...I'm going to try not to care and just keep this as what it was originally intended to be. My journal.

If you like what you read, you are invited to keep reading. If not, you are invited to ..... well, take a flying leap.

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I'm in a funk lately. The big D is rearing it's ugly head and I am chalk full of laziness, sleepies, and the i don't give a shits. You see, those are my biggest symptoms when it comes to the big D.

I don't cry uncontrollably, I don't get angry. I get lazy, tired, and just plain don't care about much. My meds haven't changed and I'm sure that changing them would do nothing.

Why?

Because I've been down this road before. I know what I need. But I don't have the motivation to go out and get it. Major catch 22.

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So, in case you are curious about how I filled my time while I was away....

I read all FOUR Twilight books. Yes, all four of them. I completely devoured them. (Ha! devoured...about vampires.) They were excellent. I mean, really camptivating. I need to find some time to see the movie again. I think I'll like it that much more now.

xoxo

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